Watching from the sidelines

Sometimes its so damn hard being a parent. Especially during those times when you are watching your child learn some really good life lessons, but knowing how damn difficult those lessons can be.

My oldest dd is away at volleyball camp, hoping to make one of the two traveling teams that represent the entire region. At the very worst, she will make the Honorable-Mention team. But....when you really want to make the team that can suck. I have showed her where other players that she knows made the HM team their first time around and have gone on to making the team later on. I don't know if that really helps her or not. I would think so, but then again she is only 12...almost 13.

As for being at this particular camp, it really is a big honor. She's just started playing this past year and is competing against girls that are a year older and with a year more experience than her. And she's hanging with them very well.

So much out there to reach for and so much out there to break your heart over. Keep going girl and kick some butt. And especially have some fun along the way, no matter what the outcome.

Conclusions & Lessons

Shit. I hate it when I'm wrong....or at least when I jump to a possible wrong conclusion.

This election stuff has got me all weirded out.

I've been thinking about it quite a bit since yesterday. I know my ramblings earlier on may have seemed like I really didn't give a damn about the outcome. But did I really feel that way?? I don't know. In a way, I think it was to protect myself when I found out the person who was running against me. You would think as an adult, I should be over that shit. Hmm...I guess not. I was thinking there was some ulterior motives going on there. Maybe there were, but possibly with a nicer intent that I had not even considered.

So, why do I jump to conclusions? Hell, I don't' know. Fear, maybe. Yeah. That's probably it. But maybe this is a good kind of fear. You know the kind that you get when you ride a roller coaster.

Shit. I hate learning these kinds of lessons.

Wasn't expecting that.....

Surprise, surprise, surprise....I am now a co-vp. Things turned out a little differently that I had expected. For the position I was running for, they changed things. Instead of having 1 vp and 1 co-vp, there are now 2 co-vp's and 1 vp. Who'da thunk it?

Election Day

Well, the day has come and I'm not really sure how I feel about it. A few weeks back, I decided to run for an office in my dd's vball club. No biggie. I wanted to help out and that seemed to be a great way to go about doing so.

I think I was the first one to be running for co-vp. But when the names of the candidates came out, I had competition. No biggie, except for the fact that the person that is running against me is the wife of my dd's coach (well for the past year anyway...she'll have a new one next time around). Now, the last time I had spoken to her about what positions she was thinking of running for, she told me that she probably wouldn't run b/c the organization didn't like to have 2 members from the same family on the board and her hubby was already part of the board. Hmmmm...so I'm guessing that if she wins, hubby will be stepping down.

At first, I have to admit that I was just a bit perturbed. Because of some things that have been said and just a bit of a gut feeling, I almost believe this is kind of a black-balling thing. Ok. I don't think I've ever done anything to piss these people off, but who knows.

After a while and some thinking about the whole situation, I am thinking that losing would actually be better. This way if my dd decides to try out and play for a more *intense* club, there won't quite the hard feelings of being a board member then taking off for somewhere else. And since I signed up for running, I have found out some really good things about the other clubs that I think are better than the one we are in now.

But again, this is all speculation.

So, later today I am off to talk to a group of people that I really don't know (except for a few) and tell them why I should be co-vp. This should be interesting.

Testing out adding a pic

So, I am thinking that I figured out how to add a photo to my blog. Again, this a wait and see. :)

This pic is an original David Walker that he drew for me at a new LSS near my house. Since it was the day before my b-day, I asked him to do something with a birthday theme. I find it rather cute.

Well, today I told my friend Lauren that I started up a blog. The first thing out of her mouth was....I thought you said were not going to do a blog! (See my previous posting) Well dear, what can I say...I changed my mind. I can be a bit of a pain in the butt that way. But, oh well. :P I guess now its your turn to start one up since it was you that got me going on this in the first place. I triple-dog dare you.

Why Blog??

For the longest time I've been thinking that this blogging business is just a bunch of crap. So, why the hell am I doing it now?

Hmmm..I don't know. I'm not one that usually jumps on a bandwagon. But I have read a few interesting blogs the past couple of days and thought that maybe I have something to say as well. Maybe not exciting stuff, but stuff nonetheless.

Will I invite people here? Or will this be my own private area? I don't know yet. I guess I can change that in time. Maybe I'm not ready for thoughts to be spread out to anyone except myself.

Only time will tell.

Testing this site out

Here I am again. Trying out another blogging spot. We'll see how this ones goes. Will I like it or will I not??